Anxiety Driven

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Anxiety Driven is real, raw and uncut.  It is expression through creative writing and personal messages shared by MMA athlete Jens Pulver and creative writer Todd Smith.  Together, Jens and Todd have created a place to empty their heart and mind while living life with anxiety and depression.  Unified with a message to stop living in the dark and step into the light…knowing peace is attainable, it exists and will be achieved.  Welcome to “Anxiety Driven”.

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You Have A Name

Nov 6

11/6/2012 11:35 PM  RssIcon

Today I set out to change the world.  I looked in the mirror and said you gotta move.  Another day as a ghost standing too quiet...we man up with our mind and fight it.  Does it really matter if they don't get it? If your heart beats in your chest...walk out of the shade and put your name on it.  Make a name so others can find their way.

If what I write can change a life...then let it be my purpose and fight.  I will do it with a smile inside.  Learning to shine my light from feel worth before I leave this Earth.  I've lived these years thinking I don't deserve...Now I want to be heard...I want to be felt.

I can't push my thoughts for the hype.  This is my life mixed with fear and anger I've lived.  So many emotional have kept me up at night.  Many times I've sat up and felt like I'm gone...I can't feel anything for my favorite songs...when I used to sing along while dancing without shame.  I heard that voice say...where did you go for so long?  All along I just wanted to come back home.

Don't be afraid...don't buy into the pain.  Take the bland picture sitting in that worn out frame.  Grab every color you can and paint it your own.  There is a have a name...find a way.  Learn to play the music you loved for so long.  A piano that could get you lost in musical thoughts...a drum beat tapping my feet...guitar strings with feeling.  Just to stay steady in a peaceful setting...never forgetting all these simple feelings of ME.

-Todd W. Smith


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