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Anxiety Driven is real, raw and uncut.  It is expression through creative writing and personal messages shared by MMA athlete Jens Pulver and creative writer Todd Smith.  Together, Jens and Todd have created a place to empty their heart and mind while living life with anxiety and depression.  Unified with a message to stop living in the dark and step into the light…knowing peace is attainable, it exists and will be achieved.  Welcome to “Anxiety Driven”.

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Mixed up in a time that doesn't want to end

Sleeping through the shining sun on my face

Can't wake up from this personal pain today

Running my hands through cold water to escape

A place that holds my thoughts and ties my hands

Just let me go so the music inside me can play

I'm at peace when guitar strings play so sweet

Someone's talented hands strum my life to sleep

Something just releases from my broken soul

Piano keys that come together in the streets

I just want to run my hands underneath the dirt

I don't want to thirst for sound; but rather live in it

I know at times it's hard to follow me down a road

My writing jumps around with ideas that I hold

But I will never tell you that it's not what's inside

Because the grass roots that lie under my skin

Only provide a glimpse of really what's in my mind

Because everyday I ask myself if I'm really okay

As the music helps me slip away and not go crazy

My chest is tight with overwhelming feelings of flight

But I stay and fight because I've never ran from the night

I go middle fingers to the sky and tell myself to cry

Depression can't have my life and anxiety I will survive

You're a monster in my life and live in my mind

My only weapon is to write you into the night

Expose you for what you are and help others to live

Live life in the light and love the rain when it comes

Hold tight to the smiles that have affected my life

Remember the songs that tell me to let go and love

Flip a coin and turn my dreams towards the sun

Open the windows and allow the sounds of music to flow

My heart is pumping and the blood is rushing from my soul

Be young; stay bold and let my story be told

Be courageous; stay breathing and #NvrFlySolo

Writing and Peace

Todd W. Smith

Categories: Anxiety Driven

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